I was undergoing surgery. It involved operating on my sternum. It was not an open-chest surgery but directly on my sternum bone. I was awake during the operation and I could feel and hear the varied hammering, drilling, cutting, knocking, forcing... And since all that was happening to such a strong and central bone, I felt it in my whole body. Since I was awake, I felt the need to go to the bathroom a couple times. The surgeon would let me go but on my own, and outside of the oiperation room we were on a basemenet, which looked sketchy. All concrete, wet floors, dark hallways with faulty, blinking lights. And I was not walking, I was wearing quad roller skates. In the bathroom I felt the urge to look at my chest underneath the operation robe, and there it was, all bloody, my chest open, with multiple tools attached and hanging from it. I went back to the operation room, and since I was wearing rollers and the hallway was sloped, I gained some speed that was hard for me to control. Some fear of falling came onto me, and I didn't want to use my arms against the walls to stop myself sicne I could risk ripping my chest open, so I just rolled and hoped for the best. This fear made some adrenaline to kick in, which increased my blood flow and pressure, which in turn made me start bleeding from the chest and raise alarms from the operating team
Dreams involving surgery often symbolize the need to make a change or undergo a transformation in your waking life. In this dream, the focus on the sternum bone, a central and strong part of the body, may indicate a desire to address deep-seated issues or emotions that are affecting you on a fundamental level.
Being awake during the surgery and feeling everything that was happening could suggest that you are feeling very aware and sensitive to what is going on around you in your waking life. The various sounds and actions during the procedure may represent the different challenges and pressures you are facing, which are causing you to feel overwhelmed and under pressure.
Needing to go to the bathroom in the dream could symbolize a need to release or let go of something in your waking life. The sketchy, dark basement with wet floors and faulty lights may indicate feelings of uncertainty, fear, or discomfort about the current situation you are in. The roller skates and the inability to control your movement could suggest feelings of being out of control or not being able to navigate a difficult situation with ease.
The imagery of your chest being open and bloody with tools attached to it may symbolize feelings of vulnerability, exposure, or feeling like you are being operated on or manipulated by outside forces. The fear of falling and not being able to stop yourself without risking further harm could reflect a fear of making a mistake or being unable to protect yourself in a challenging situation.
Overall, this dream may be highlighting your feelings of vulnerability, fear, and pressure in your waking life. It could be a sign that you need to address these emotions and take steps to regain a sense of control and stability in your life.